Week 13

Alright guys, I broke down and waited 5 hours for our slow laptop to upload some pictures... 

I'll be honest with you, I've always had this problem where I care way too much what people think. So I've kinda been putting off the 'bump pictures'. Especially since there really isn't one. (Kinda. ;) ) But, judge if you must, I'm putting them up. :)

So before I tell you about this week here's the back update...

 This is the first picture I wrangled Matt into taking, I wanted to have a starting point, and I obviously had NOTHING. So. Here's the starting point. :p (I tried the cutesy whiteboard instead of chalk board because I'm cheap and I didn't want to buy one... but I got lazy and decided I couldn't pull off the cutesy pinterest thing as well as pinterest can. So, the end to that!)

This is the right after our first appointment, at 10 weeks. :) Matt doesn't have the photography obsession that I do and so most of the pictures were blurry... this was as good as it was going to get! This was the point where I started to hate buttoning pants. No bump... I just felt... thicker. 

 And this basically sums up our emotions that day! A little deer in the headlights, a lot excited and a lot overwhelmed!

And now (drumroll please) this was today at 13 weeks. I don't know if it's because when you're pregnant you get bloated, or if it was that I didn't have a pants waist line cutting me in half, but whatever it was I looked kinda pregnant today! (Maybe it's because I eat like ever five stinking minutes these days and it's all just my chub. ;p)

 ....aaand Matt's baby bump. ;) He's coming along quite nicely, right?

Alright. Week 13. So in the first several weeks I was thinking, "Goodness, I have a sweet record! I never even throw up!" Well... I guess this baby had to break me in to the full spectrum of pregnancy sooner or later because my record is shot. Definitely. The good news is it still could be worse! I feel like I've been pretty blessed, because I'm not worse case scenario by any means. :)  I was thinking about it today, and I've been kinda pretty negative about it. Growing a tiny human is hard! Going through all these weird hormonal changes isn't easy and it's not all glow and fun and excitement all the time. (Thanks Hollywood, for false expectations on that too. ;) ) But I'll tell you this, it is amazing to think about why your body is all weird and what's going on inside. :) It's amazing how fast the little worm looks like a little person, and it's humbling to think about how Heavenly Father gives us the opportunity to feel a small portion of what He does for us, because of how we feel towards this tiny person. Sometimes I sit back and think 'I'm not ready for this! I can't be a mom! What was Heavenly Father thinking, letting us become parents and giving us that special answer in the priesthood blessing Matt gave me?' Good grief, am I old enough? Am I going to be good enough? And ya know what? Maybe I'm not, but Heavenly Father gives us exactly what we need to get there. :) I realized today that I've been focusing on how hard it is, and I haven't been grateful and looking for the tender mercies.  Matt and I talked today about how we have a totally different perspective on families now that we're expecting. It wasn't even a conscious thing, really. Before when I'd see a family- no matter what stage they were in- I'd be so centered on the husband and wife. How they worked together and treated each other. How they were such a team as parents and still were so in love... all that good stuff. :) Now I see families in all stages and all I can think about is mom and dad and how they interact with their kids and how they feel toward their children. I didn't even notice the difference in my thoughts toward family before today.  So, this week. :) This week our baby is three inches long! This week was hard at work and at the pharmacy but I got to spend time with my cute mama, and she rescued me at work on a tough morning. :) I feel a little less tired which is awesome, and even though it feels like eating is a chore lately, I've figured out how to stay on top of morning sickness (for the most part.)
Tuesday we have our second doctor appointment, and I really hope we get to watch our tiny human wiggle around in the ultrasound again. :) According to the app, at 14 weeks the baby is the size of a lemon so that seems like serious progress, right? :) I'm excited to be getting closer to finding out what this little person is! 
Anyway, I feel like this was all a huge ramble and I didn't even really express my feelings about this week very well, so I'm sorry! (Honestly this whole update thing is more for me because I don't write in my journal as much as I should and I want to remember all this down the road. :p)